Sunday, April 28

soulmate.

Photo Credits: Lauren Anne Photography; NoĆ«lle Byard; Lou Kilpatrick 
Dress: H&M, $10
 Earrings: Target, $7.99 
Nude Heels (not pictured): Target, $29.99
Hunter,
This school year has been one of the hardest but most rewarding things I've had to go through. Being without you for nearly nine months has been so challenging, yet I can truly see how much more appreciative I am now than ever before. I've learned through the year just how much I care about you, and how valuable our time spent together is. As much as I've loved becoming closer to you, I've also loved being able to be separate from you. And it's something that's really hard for me to have to do, but I think that we've both grown so much as different people and I wouldn't change it for the world. You make me incredibly happy. Even our fighting is worth it, because it brings us stronger in the end. It's been said that a soulmate is someone who will make you the most "you" that you can possibly be, and if that's the case you're definitely my soulmate. I love you, and I can't wait for next week when I'll be home for the summer. 
I love you.
Forever. 
More than anybody else.
No matter what. 
-Me 

Make sure to click the link for Lauren Anne Photography to see more pictures of Hunter & I and also to just check out a young photography business! Lauren is one of my best friends, and is so talented! Hit her up if you're from the Columbus area! 

Wednesday, April 24

with faith and understanding, you will journey from boy to man.

Thinking about:
How quickly my freshman year has flown by! Next week is finals week, and then it's all done. This year has had its up and downs and so much has changed. I came with a roommate, I'm ending without one. I start with two suite mates, and now I only have one. My circle of friends have changed so much just since January and I'm so thankful for the girls I have. They are some of the best friends I've ever had.
Reading:
Song of Solomon by Toni Morrison. I'm reading that for a research paper, and I just so enjoy Toni Morrison's writing. I've read Beloved, and everything about her writing just makes me happy. I've also slowly been rereading Looking for Alaska, mainly on the basis that it's... Looking for Alaska. Does one need more reasons that that?
Listening to:
I have been jamming out to Long Hot Summer on repeat for the past couple weeks. Probably only because I'm becoming extremely anxious to have summer come!
Looking forward to:
Prom! It's in just a few days and I'm ready to be home and get all dressed up. If you forgot, I was home schooled, so that means that I've never actually been to a prom before... I did go to homecoming one year, but lets be honest, that's not nearly as cool as prom. Plus I get to wear a really long, pink dress. And what's better than that? I mean, c'mon. It's pink we're talking about. And on top of all of that, all of my friends are coming home with me. 
Watching:
I've always been into New Girl, but me and my suite have a ritual of watching it together every Thursday that a new episode comes out while eating our lunch. It's pretty fabulous, and I'm so in love with Nick's "dead Dad pass" phrase.
Making me happy:
It's super sunny right now, and that makes me so very happy. The morning started off really gloomy and that was just extremely depressing. I'm so thrilled that it's finally seeming to warm up for the most part. Like, seriously winter. I'm done with you. Bring on the warmth and the tan. Plus, I really want to start wearing my... bikini. It's my first time ever buying one, and I'm so excited to wear one for the first time since I was under three years old. Yeah, I'm a girl gone wild during my college years.

P.S. If you know what song I got this title from without Google, I will love you forever.

Tuesday, April 16

#prayforboston


I think that it's completely idiotic of me to think that my saying anything about the tragedy in Boston will do anything. It won't be a condolence. It will add one more blog post, one more Twitter update, on more Facebook status to the billion coming in. When things like this happen, no one knows what to do. We offer up our sympathies, and some of us offer our prayers. After we do our obligatory duty, the wheels in our head begin to turn and we wonder how people could this. How could someone wake up one morning and decide that this is what they want to do with their lives? This is how they want to be remembered? We focus so much on the bad, the negative. It's so much easier to see, you know? It's in plain and simple sight that horrible people are in this world and horrible things happen. We all have known for millennium that this world is a horrible place. But, in focusing so much on the bad we're also giving insane attention to the one who committed this horrible act. So, what am I doing writing this? Just adding fuel to the fire?
No. 
When we think of all the bad that we saw yesterday, and think of how horrible the world is, remember those who helped. Think of all the good. Tens, hundreds, a nation full, of people rose to help. Millions offered prayers, and tons of people physically went to the aftermath and assisted the victims. This world is good. 

"Our world is kind of awful.
No. Our world is great. For every one person who plants bombs, you have hundreds more running a marathon. For every one person that makes a joke about the dead and dying, you have thousands more donating blood, offering prayers, and volunteering their time. Things like this are the fault of single individuals who make violent, loud statements. We just have to make sure that the statements of the good are louder." (source

Monday, April 1

It Goes On


The funny thing about life is that it goes on. While I am in my own orb of life, living everyday doing the simple things, the worlds continues to spin and events continue to happen. I am continually realizing just how much I am not needed. And not in the extremely depressing way that most people think about not being needed, but more like a huge weight being taken off of my shoulders. Life goes on. And God knows exactly what He's doing. I am not vital to His plan, but I am allowed a part of it if I choose. 
I realize this more and more when I go home. Everything seems to go on without me; things change and people become different. Including Hunter and I. Everything has changed with him... everything, yet nothing at all. If that makes any sort of sense. Our entire relationship is so much different than it was in August. And, I honestly believe that it has all been for the better. The funny thing about long distance relationships is that it enables us to both be completely independent people and it enables us to be so free. The great thing about freedom is that it lets you become the best you possible, and so far we're liking what this freedom has done to us. 
I treasure every single moment I'm allowed to have with Hunter, whether it's out making maple syrup or sitting in the car for six hours while he helps bring me back to school. He's changed in the time that I've been gone, and I'm able to appreciate every single change that has happened within him. 

She does not strive for perfection, but lives life as it is, rather than what she has pictured life to be.